Up & down

see saw. up and down. you go up and i go down.

(of coz vice versa is true =p)

a day in the life of me: up & down. recently, i've been having mood swings. which isn't that typical of my life.. other than maybe the time of the months.. *wink* i just feel unmotivated, tired and literally just letting time go by. i suppose it isn't a good thing but i'm not sure how to undo the unmotivated me, nor feed in strength for the day. i wonder if it's a spiritual attack - i've been fasting from my computer first thing in the morning, to spend an extended time with God. been praying really hard for my spiritual family members (tho i'm not done with everyone's requests yet) and taking the time to sit quietly before the Lord. one thing tho, as much as i want the "be still and know that God is here" mood, i tend to hear myself asking God, "let me hear from You.. God help me be (more sensitive)" and to that, just hear the birds chirping or the cars going by. hmm.. could it be the air not flowing in the house? (it's summer and it can get quite hot in the day so i have the a/c for a large portion of the day) is there sth wrong with me?

saw fren online. really glad of his friendship. after all that we've been through! so happy for him, settling down & stuff. =p gave him uncle jimmy's contacts for his new house renovations. anyone else need a contractor, beep me!

so glad to be talking to friends back home. couple have msn-ed me to ask if everything was alright coz my nick has been "i wanna go home.." like they were concerned if sth happened. getting tired replying them that i need a job before i can leave. haha. i think life is fine after keng comes home from work though. haha. the short time we spend before we turn in for the night is kinda routined - shower, eat dinner/watch tv, talk to (my) mum, share about the day, pray, sleep. we did head out for dinner with will (a friend of keng's who's working FT in this area) yesterday. i kept quiet for the first part of the conversations, listening to what each of them had to say - they're both in the finance industry now and well, knew each other back in MIT. slowly, we warmed up and i began to talk.. really glad to be able to share truthfully abt why keng left ABSK (the old church which i was asking pple to pray for wisdom to leave) and thankfully, even though he couldn't identify totally, he was pretty open about it. =)

trying to take pics for my earrings. no progress. it was a rainy morning and the sun's on leave this afternoon too. i'm not sure if such photos could only be taken at studios - abby, i miss you! =p probably gonna try again later at christian's place - we going over to cook dinner (& accompany lonely him =p) i miss my canon ixus. my parents and brother suggest i trade in my spoilt one and buy a new one. deciding between a panasonic lumix FX30 or a TZ3 (any suggestions peeps?). as much as i like canon's photo quality and heh, ixus' really cool style, it probably has a higher chance of experiencing the same breakdown error.. and a little more expensive. so oh well.. the lumix look pretty cool too. but abby say night shots arent great tho. sigh. maybe i should go to the store to take a look and compare.. am i over-spending?? i need to be saving up!!