Unreasonable?

this will be one post i'm going to write with more personal feelings involved.. haven't really done so for some time because like yiyong, i had decided to make this place not as one for complaining & letting off my anger/disappointment, etc.. but i've enough so this will be one exception..

brother is 18 years old this year. he's a smart fellow who works very hard to achieve good results at school. from a very young age, he has been the 'apple of my parents' eyes' and i wont blame him. he's always at home studying while i was the 'rebellious' one who was always out. i was always quarrelling either with mum or dad, fighting my way to stand upon what i believed was right. brother needn't even lift a finger because i had 'set the limits'. as long as he adhered to the rules i had broken, he was in the 'safe zone'. like what eunice said, he's at a stage where he feels that he knows everything in the world & believes the world revolves around him (i too, was once guilty)

i dunno if i really blew my head off. i said what i thought had been true and unfair to me but brother thinks i lost my temper. frankly, i retreated. i said no further, making a point to stop 'letting my anger take the better of me'. i went into my room. it was also i decided that mum was the 'unreasonable' one, scolding me for taking the incident so seriously when i really felt that i had done nothing wrong but ask to use brother's comp to print my tutorials. brother had strongly disagreed with it & said that i was disturbing his studying for A levels! it wasnt the first time i had asked to use the printer.. his previous few rejections led me to ask friends for help to print stuff. i felt bad since i had a printer at home..

to this day, mum still feels that i was in the wrong & so does brother. i have spoken to mum a few times since but she keeps insisting that i had been too uptight about it. communication with brother has dropped to an 'all time low' of 'hi's.. :( pls pray for me..