why?

there are many times when we ask why.we ask our parents why.. we ask ourselves why.. and we ask God why.. we don't always get an answer (or a satisfactory one) and life still goes on.

5 years ago. my final year in college. i was in lecture when SC stood up to leave to answer a phone call. he came back a minute later and he said there was sth very urgent and he had to go - i never knew him to skip lectures (unlike me.) he left. obviously i couldn't absorb fully anyth my prof said for the next 30? minutes or so. i kept wondering (read: kaypoh). SC or SA (one of them) called later to ask if i had SH's email address. i had no clue why they had called to ask that since SH was my jc classmate and SC/SA were my church friends. i couldn't put 2 and 2 together. started calling all my jc classmates who were in my college. for some strange reason, no one had his email addr. i didn't know at that time that SH was actually in the US doing an exchange program. long story short: turned out a friend had committed suicide. unbelievable.

5 years later. now. i'm working in the US and i get a sms from my gd friend from home that this friend, who had committed suicide 5 years ago, her mum just did the same! she jumped from her bedroom window. why? why did it happen? again.