i need to improve!

still in the dark on whether i'll have my position next year. perhaps i shld be upfront and direct to my HOD - ask if that's the case. pray for me! i caught him in the hallway today, and we've set next tue morning to go over my observation. *stress*

been asking sam(uel) and jaekyun on how to improve my singing, my worship leading and my guitar. last week jungho came up to me and asked if i had been good at guitar all these while (because it was my first time playing in the worship band in PSIF). i just smiled sheepishly and said i'm still newb. she was like "wow, that's very daring!" i told her my horrible playing was musked by the fantastic musicians on the team. oops! haha.

been trying to practice this song (hosanna by paul baloche) over the past 1.5 hours. went to listen to the original artist play on youtube. happened to find some other videos he made about questions pple asked him with regards to worship. quite challenged to improve myself. (God help me!!) apparently 4 hours a day would help. haha. but well, dont think i have that luxury, so i think i'll try to dedicate more time more often to practice at least my guitar skills. =p abby, you shall be proud of me someday! haha. these days, i try to spend some afternoons before naps worshiping God (sort of) on youtube. sometimes, i put songs on to listen while doing work and that kinda helps keep me awake.

the last thing i wanna share before i go for dinner is that i've "adopted" a prayer group at sch - think i might have mentioned before. things have been going very slow. we usually have 5 regular pple (last week we had 3) and i wonder how i can better motivate the students to come. food? worship? Word? i really don't know. planning to help out in YM if possible.. ?......