Boiling

felt really bad. boy in my class pressing all the 'wrong' buttons. getting on my nerves. acting silly & funny so pple will just laugh at him. failing my class. not b/c he doesnt get it; he's a smart boy mind you! he just intentionally shows he does not care less if he fails. obviously school taught me a few things.. when you want pple to care, sometimes, you do the reverse and make pple not care. humans are weird aren't they? i sent him out of the class. for disrupting. i had kept it in, smiled about other stuff.. i had controlled myself from bursting. and then alas! i just said, "that's enough. stand outside."

i finished up the class quickly, and headed out to "face this horror". i asked him if he knew what was wrong. obviously he tried to be punk, act blur and said i sent him out b/c he was drinking water (duh - he was squirting water all around!) i said no. he said i sent him out b/c he didnt copy notes. i said no. i told him there were others who weren't copying notes, and that's fine if he could understand (except that he's currently failing my class and that he should pay attn.) i cant remb what he said next. i told him i sent him out b/c he was very disrupting. it's cool that he wants to be the class clown and chat with his friends, but not when i'm teaching - he shldn't do it loudly and make everyone distracted. i asked him what he would like for me to tell his mother - this is not the first time i've called home. he just shook his head. i told him that he needed to tell me some good stuff about him, else i really dont have good things to tell his mum. oh well.. guess that didn't help huh? pls pray for me. mine's not the only class he's like that though. we're thinking of bringing his mum in to meet with all his teachers. a sudden plunge from Bs/Cs to Fs. =(